Friday, September 2, 2011

Studio blues 1


New city/new home/new studio....again?!
I am sure all of you that have moved to a different city can relate. It always takes a while putting everything in it's new place again...and then suddenly you can call it your home.

Well, as an artist that is only one part of the move that you have mastered at this point. Now I have to move my mental state of mind, my second life as I call it, to that same location. It is challenging, exciting and scary at the same time. Breaking in a studio is not done by simply putting the easel into position and the paints ready, no its much more a mental procedure than anything else, oh....and for those who know me, and lots of caffein consumption in my case!

I have to create something that lets me become that artists again, that I missed for the last 3 months! You say, just get it over with? Really? It's actually plain torture, not being able to do for so long what actually makes you whole. I actually feel a bit like a bi-polar patient in treatment,..... just without getting any treatment!

So I am sitting here today between boxes, my paintings (and the cat litter box, because I have not found the perfect spot for it yet) and wait for that right feeling to kick in! I have to admit though that it's the only time for getting rid of some useless brushes, that just made the journey through the desert back and forward too many times already. But wait, maybe not, you never know, i might need them after all. Oh right, I could sort the charcoals, so they are ready,.... just in case.... After 2 hours, my 3rd cup of espresso and rearranging art related stuff, I feel a bit better. I am ready now to wait,.... to wait for tomorrow. Its going to be a good day tomorrow, I know it!